Just Another Day

The pills and razor blade rest at my side
This is not the end but the beginning
I have had my low points
I have taken a few pills in the past
Only to obliterate the world from my mind
A few moments of peace
Before everything comes crashing down
Disjointed memories of an ambulance and a hospital
Drifting in and out of consciousness
How in God’s name has it come to this?
I reached out to so many souls
But they were too busy living their own lives
Moments of enlightenment followed by days of depression
But that was the past
Today is the dawning of a new reality
I have taken all that this world can throw at me
The pills and razor blade still rest at my side
But they are not going to see any action tonight
It is a night of silent contemplation
I put everything back in their proper place
This world can be a better place
I will fight on a little longer
The pills and razor blade will always be there
My silent friends who lead me into darkness
I am ready to stare into the light
At least for one more day
Just another day,
no more...


Rest In Peace
neo

Denial

I have had enough of self-denial
I am not the one on trial
Its society
I have had enough of this sobriety
I am going to break the chain
No need to explain
You have been applying the screw
And you always knew
That eventually I would crack
And start fighting back
I am starting a new page
The world is my stage
I am throwing away my black clothing
I no longer have a need for self-loathing
What did you expect?
I have regained my self-respect
What did you expect?...
Rest In Peace
neo