Musings of a Rebel

im a rebel..

i c oders leadin a carefree normal life...c der joyful faces..they play..they gossip they love..i c friendships made n broken n made 1ce agen..

but i dun care..i dont want a happy serene life...i dun wanna dream..i dun wanna c visionz..i dun wanna luv..i dun wanna b luved..im a rebel..sad bastards they..

i watch their xtatik faces as they feel the essence of soft numbers...c them humming a tune dat speaks of love n lyf..sumtymez i hum along.sumtymez i dont..it duznt really matter..i lissen 2 metal musik..not coz i lyk 2..but coz i think itz rebellious..it speaks f death n misery..they prolly think im sadistic..

but i dun care..i dont want a happy serene life...i dun wanna dream..i dun wanna c visionz..i dun wanna luv..i dun wanna b luved..im a rebel..sad bastards they...

i watch as they help oders..watch them struggle 2 improve society..they care 4 n luv oders..i watch them being admired n luved in return..i kno they give their best..i kno dat de wud gib nething 2 c dis world a better place where evry person lives his dream..sumtymes i think id lyk it dat way..sumtymes i dont..it duznt really matter..i live life for myself..myself and myself only..i am cruel n unsympathetic...not coz i want 2..but coz i think itz rebellios..evry1 wantz ta b angel..but itz rebellios 2 d antichrist..de prolly think im evil..

but i dun care..i dont want a happy serene life...i dun wanna dream..i dun wanna c visionz..i dun wanna luv..i dun wanna b luved..im a rebel..sad bastards they..

i watch them indulge in d simple pleasured f lyf..sleeping in klass..harmless flirting..frendship n fun..sumtymez i watch them n smile..sumtymez i dont..it duznt really matter...i live a lyf of desperation enmity sex n drugs..not coz i wanna but coz i think itz rebellios..happiness breeds contenment..i dun wanna b content...they prolly think im dangerous..

but i dun care..i dont want a happy serene life...i dun wanna dream..i dun wanna c visionz..i dun wanna luv..i dun wanna b luved..im a rebel..sad bastards they..

i watch them devote their entire livez to love..but i dun love..

love...evrytym i close my eyes i kno im gonna c her..evrytym mah heart skips a beat i kno itz thinkin about her..evrytym i dream i kno wat im gonna dream about..evrybreath i take i kno hu itz fer..itz olwez her..dat same smile playin @her lipz which seem 2 laff at my desperation..her hair bein buffeted by de wind..n fer dat moment i envy de wind..her form a perfekt amalgamation of the elementz..i hear a song drifting 4m an unknown origin..sum1 told me dat love wud ol save us..but how can dat b..luk wat luv gave us..a world full of killing..of blood spilling...".mebbe im in love..mebbe not..it duznt really matter..i tell ppl i dunt love...not coz i lyk 2...but coz itz rebellios...they say im not a human being...

but i dun care..i dont want a happy serene life...i dun wanna dream..i dun wanna c visionz..i dun wanna luv..i dun wanna b luved..im a rebel..sad bastards they..

they say i shud stop n think..prolly i shud..im a rebel..but wat m i rebelling agenst?..agenst humanity..agenst luv..agenst lyf?..mebbe agenst mahself..they say im a failure...

but i dun care..i dont want a happy serene life...i dun wanna dream..i dun wanna c visionz..i dun wanna luve..i dun wanna b luved..im a rebel..sad bastards they..

Rest In Peace

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